Why Now?

Hey y’all, my name is Candice, but I mainly go by C.J. I suppose there’s no better way to begin than by telling everyone why I decided now, at 32, to start a blog. I feel like more than anything I want this to be like a journal, but not a regular journal, like a cool journal (Amy Poehler reference from "Mean Girls") Ha! - But no more like an accountability journal. I’ve always had a hard time consistently writing in a journal/diary. Typically, I’d write every day for about a week until I became bored and then I’d either taper off slowly or stop writing altogether for a few years until I picked it back up for a week or so and repeated the cycle, over and over again.

I also wanted to start this blog to help me get out of my comfort zone...Back in 2014 I started (slowly) singing in front of people (anyone who knows me understands what a challenge that was for me). I've always loved to sing, even when I was younger but somewhere along the way I let the fear of judgement seep into my mind and it held me back for many years. In 2019 I got the farthest out of my comfort zone and tried out for American Idol, twice. I wasn't chosen but I was so proud of myself for even auditioning. Fast forward to present day, I'm currently taking singing lessons to improve my voice and I'm hoping to try out for "The Voice" this time. I'll tell more about my singing later. Back to our regularly scheduled programming...

You may be thinking, “There are so many blogs out there, why do you think anyone will care about your blog and what you have to say?”. Honestly, I don’t. I’m not sure that anyone will read this and that's ok. If others do happen to read my blog though and it helps them in any way, that would be amazing.

I'll likely be writing about anything and everything. Having ADHD my mind is literally all over the place. I've often described my thought process to others as having about 50+ internet tabs open at once and trying to look at all of them, at the same time. It's exhausting to say the least. So my posts are going to be about whatever is going on in my life as well as any where else my mind happens to bounces too. (evidence #1: getting off topic about singing). Also, as much as I would like to blog every single day, it likely won't happen. I'm a nurse and I live over an hour away from my work and after a 12 hour shift ya girl will not have time for that. So some days it won't be feasible for me to blog, so bear with me. I'll be doing good if I blog twice a week.

Now, as much as I wish I were flawless and would love this blog to be the same, that's not realistic. So I want my blog to embody my life - messy, crazy and imperfect. My goal is to be real with every one and not make it appear that I have this cookie cutter life because I absolutely do not. I think misrepresentation negatively impacts everyone.

Will you get whiplash from this blog? Most definitely. Will you laugh? Maybe. Will you be able to relate to my life however exciting or mundane my day to day is? I hope so. I'm just a regular schmegular girl trying to make myself a little better every day. So, with my first blog post out in the world now, I hope you follow along.

-C.J.

P.S.

call me frosted cause I'm flakey. If you message me and I don't get back to you I'm apologizing in advance, it's nothing personal. If I don't reply immediately there's a 99.9% chance I'll forget. I will try to reply as soon as I see the message and in the off chance that I have thousands of followers (maybe one day) and I'm unable to reply to everyone, just know you're loved and I appreciate you following along with me.

The sky is not the limit. Your mind is.

-Marilyn Monroe